First shot

Okay, I often write in journals, but really I have come to the conclusion that it is no help. I need the space to vent, to cry, to laugh,to understand; I need something BIGGER.  SO, here we go. I am 18 years old, super young I know, but I have...

How?

Have u ever loved somebody for no reason? I met a guy at my job and I noticed him instantly I remember the day I took notice of him. He is not the best looking guy. He does not have a whole lot of money. He's just a guy. For some reason I love him. He...

Is love really real?

I have been sitting here for over a week, waiting for Joe to call me. Everyone is telling me that he doesn't care or he would be communicating with me, for our daughter, if nothing else. Apparently he doesn't care that she will soon be going into the...

i'm dizzy from this rollercoaster ride

you are forcing me to ride this rollercoaster and you know i won't say no because you're beautiful. I spend most of this ride staring at your face your strong jawline your big nose your pretty eyes and the way your veins pop out on...

His parents might be racist...:/

i was talking to my dad about racism and whatnot...something popped up in my mind my boyfriend's parents just might be racist...i know he isn't cause he's dating me...that's something i know but i guess they might be putting up with me cause i am...

Lonely

You know...to me...the saddest thing in the world...is when I notice...everyone around me...has someone to love them, but I'm alone. I wish I could walk into an anime, where I could find my peace and happy ending

Scary Love

      Bonds between two people   Strong enough to overcome all   Helping each other stay tall   How can anyone commit to that?       Pretending I just don’t care   Is the defense I choose to build   I...

Cruise

  Blurring past me goes my life,   All its colorful moments lump   Into an ostentatious abstract   Painting, in which I am the subject,       The girl lying in the field   Marveling at the Creators work,   ...

Fearing Your Love

  Here I am at the crossroads,   One side there’s you and me   But on the other there’s   Me crying while you walk away       The script plays out inside   My head, you love another   You can’t handle the...

Two Men

(A blog post I discovered in my laptop, created May 18, 2014. These men are no longer lingering in my mind. But I must admit that I am naïve on the concept of love since I’ve never been in one before. Now I find this writing foolish in some ways, but...

My Medical Mystery Advice

If feel that what I usually blog about are events that are not exactly positive.  Whether that be struggles or frustrations, what I express is negative.  It's funny, though, because I am not a negative person. If you ask those around me, I try to keep...

Dear Pete and Becky

Dear Pete and Becky,   Know first and foremost that the two of you have been the best friends that I could ever ask for. You opened yourselves up to me and poured out your love. I, on the other hand have not been the greatest friend. So long...

Women

Your everywhere I look Your constantly on my mind There is no escaping Ever Your perfect Your bright Your fascinating You're you Do I know you? No, but I desire to Fantasizing of how it could be with you Images of...

How I Learned About Love

I've been wanting to write this for over a week and now I'm going to finally do it because I've been working nonstop and I finally get a little break.   So a little over a week ago I ran into, what I guess you can call, an old friend from high...

Where's the love?

I'm sitting here, knowing that I have several better things I should be doing...but not really doing any of them. Updating my resume? I've been staring at the page for about two hours with no success. I know it won't update itself, but right now, I'm...

Media/People.

I want to talk about this, get it off my shoulders. I want you to think about it, as I speak to all you haters and hoarders. I don't care what you call yourselves, I aint here to treat ya like your mama.   First of all: It aint none of...

Betrayal

Betrayal is undoubtably part of our crazy world. It seems that betrayal meets us around every coner of our lives and leaves a bitter taste in our mouths after every sickening meeting. I have been dealing with a lot of betrayal the past few months and...

Time of? I'm back!

It's been quit a while. My postings have had a lot of space in between them. I hope now with my son getting older I'll have much more oppurtunity to spend with my head in books and my mind on lyrics. Eventually I'll have my voice in the music. Until...