Anniversary

So, I’ve not posted in quite a while.  Things have been tough.  And life has been busy.  The reason I’m doing it now?!  2 years ago tonight, my (then) Fiancé, my 2 year old and myself were up in Edinburgh bringing my sister home after she spent the...

And so it begins

  I'm going through a pretty rough time in my life and I'm not quite sure who I can talk but I need to get my emotions off chest and out of my brain. I guess I'll just dive in and there will be a lot of flash-backs to catch you all up as I...

The 'Other' Woman

  I love women, I really do, but cor blimey, they confuse the bejizzles out of me!   Being a woman, I guess I’m supposed to have some kind of internal encyclopaedia that tells me why they act the way they do, but no. My internal encyclopaedia...

Body Image

Do you ever just sit and sulk about yourself? I was talking to an old friend and her previous relationship was not a good one for me. I know it wasn't/isn't my relationship but her boyfriend or whatever they were/are would always make comments to me....

fiber anyone?

So life in the new house is going well, tempers are much better. We just got google fiber today, and starting to update our computers to windows 10. I've missed having internet in the house and more then one thing connected at a time.  So I wrote a...

Heartbroken

Why do us as women let guys run over us. The guy ive been in love with for years has became mine but we fight bout small thing. And every word he says stays with me and it hurts so bad i cry myself to sleep. I dont get why i keep letting it happen. I...

Tainted Love

And I hate the way my heart leaps in excitment, only to plummet in dissapointment when I realise it wasn't you. 

If I were Jack Bauer...

I cannot believe how much happened yesterday, but I guess that's what happens when you stay up for 24 hours!   In a nutshell: I woke up at 7:00 a.m. and ran for four miles, hit the gym around noon, and got into the first of several fights with...

Swish of a wish

Four years apart had kept us four steps away. One day those four years apart didnt matter and the four steps away became four steps close. Things were so natural but so different. I didnt know you for you, all I knew was of you. I knew your mistakes...

Telling someone you love them out of habit?.

I learned this the hard way many years ago. I was in a bad relationship that lasted little over three years...and I didn't love this guy like i thought I did. It was always I LOVE YOU everyday all day...and one day it hit me. I never ment it. If you...

Feelings

it's weird how friendship turns into love, whether it is fate or just the fact that we're both lonely as hell i don't know. but i dont know when i started imagining your lips on mine. 

Friendzoned (fic)

He sat in the drivers seat of the car, by the secluded river we had driven too, in order to forget someone else. But for some reason something happened and he didn't seem to forget. Instead in the middle of a kiss he pulled away but kept his arm...

Fake Fool

Work. That's all life is to me. I few weeks ago I looked myself in the mirror and said you're alive. It's time that you've accepted that fact. You can't control everything thing that happens to you, but you can stick around to find out what happens....

Sexuality?

Currently I am in a relationship with my bestfriend. His name is Nathaniel. He would go to the edge of the universe for me and I more than appreciate his every endeavor. I admire him exponentially and constantly have my mind twiddling over some...

The struggles inside of me...

It's been a couple of days since I have written anything some things have changed but in the same aspect stayed the same. The world has kept on turning and my internal struggle with myself lives on.  Suffering from depression my whole life doesn't...

An Open Letter about an Unhealthy Friendship

I have a terrible habbit of confusing obession with caring, and those two things are not synonyms. So to the person that I used to call my best friend, let me start with this, our friendship was probably the most unhealthy friendship I have ever had...

Tarnished Crowns...

  On the precipice of this wretched pain, I’ve come to realize my human stain. Trapped in this flood and rain, sinews and strain.     Soldiers in classes, unify in dark masses, plotting destruction, death’s construction.     All...

I gotta lighten up LOL

Serious topics abound and I gotta lighten up LOL Cant save everybody and its not my job. Its Gods. My son and I went on another 9 mile walk. Weathered this second one much better LOL My son is such a sweet heart. He would not let me walk on the side...

Dealing with Pain

We all feel it. We all handle it differently. Pain. Just the word can bring back a flood of memories that you just want to forget for the rest of your life. Now, there are two major types of pain. Physical pain, and emotional pain. We are gonna focus...

This is My Song

Isn't is a beautiful thing how a song can move your soul? I spent much of my life feeling the music. I still enjoy a leg stomping old country classic and will never get tired of a piano or violin playing something classical. For the past several years...

Reasonable or Needy?

  So I’ve been dating this guy for almost 2 months. Although that doesn’t seem like very long, I’ve known him for a decently long time and we work together (note that we are completely civil at work because we don’t want anyone to know). Well, the...