Life

Today ah what to say. Lately I've been thinking of how we draw death. When I see death it's not of malice vengeance violence or that sort. I see a sad person.        This maybe why in this life I'm ready for my past life recalls. May also be why...

Life

Today ah what to say. Lately I've been thinking of how we draw death. When I see death it's not of malice vengeance violence or that sort. I see a sad person.        This maybe why in this life I'm ready for my past life recalls. May also be why...

broken...

For a moment in time Our souls intertwined. I gave my body, my spirit, my all…   But still, I wasn’t enough You refused my love My body, my spirit is broken…    -    Cindy Trinidad 

Day 8 Thank you for your Service

It is memorial day today so i wanted to write Allie. Lately i have been doing everything i can to not write her as much because i dont want her getting mad or upset. I still think about her everyday and honestly i just hope she is alright and happy....

When It Rains...

As I sit here on my bed with my window open listening to the rain I can't help but start to think about the conversation we had last night. The conversation that made my heart drop. I sat there while you had tears in your eyes telling me that you're...

out here.....

So , i have been through a lot of changes since entering " the lifestyle ". Some of which was outlined in my first blog titled newbiesub. Most recently , i tried poly . It was nice to start then i quickly became overwhelmed by the female drama. Which...

Lost and empty ....

Once again I sit with laptop in front of me. If I look up I will see the evening sun upon the trees, the breezer blowing through the branches. The sound of cars and motorcycles, of voices permiates the open window. I am here with curtains partly...

Chinese Whispers **my confessions**

      I can hear the whispers.. "she's afraid to love," passing the message along to any man who tries.. I'd correct them if I cared to intercept their little game of Chinese Whispers.. though, this heart of mine is much safer whilst I keep them all...

New flame.

I am not sure if these feelings are true. I am unsure because of the  current situation I am in. My relationship is failing, and this new person has walked into my life. I am not sure if these feelings I have for her are true, or just me longing for...

LOVE IS PAINFUL

he was lonely..  even the stars didn't came to acompany him.. he was lost in her memories.. with tears in his eyes..  waiting for her..  when her mother saw him like that.. she asked god.. what happened to my boy ..? why is he in so much pain.. ? and...

Conflict between the heart and the mind.

I am torn. My relationship of almost three years has taken a downward spiral. I love her. But I don't know if I am what she needs.. I've lost her trust and we are nothing like before. We love each other, we care for each other.. But I don't know if I...

The bright side

Two hours ago, I was having a hard time dealing with a personal problem. I may share the experience one of these days but right now I want to tell everyone something positive about me because I am not all sadness. I found the love of my life about a...

That One Friend

Have you ever had that one friend that you cared about so deeply, and you always wanted the best for them? Well I have one of those and frankly, it's more complicated than just the best friends title. See the fact is me and my Best friend talked for 8...

So Sad and yet So Thankful

As I reflect on things, I have to say that I am very grateful for my husband. We have in the past couple of years been through so much and we have made it together. We have weathered a storm of financial problems and dealt with the depression that...

Tomorrow

TomorrowI want to be in your arms,  With your lips on my cheek.  Tomorrow, I want to lay with you in your bed, Where we lay quietly, and not speak.  Tomorrow, I want to make you a breakfast,  Even if I'm a little coy, Tomorrow I want...

Afraid of me..

My I am just no good. :( For my thoughts, are just misunderstood. Yes I am an imperfect being, But maybe to imperfect, with no meaning.  Is this why, I am so despised?  Why my imperfection is deep in there eyes?  I just want to follow...

Some things should be left unsaid

As I have said already, this blog is fro me to express about my journey with my husband to become parents. Now, I have been dealing with this issue for years and friends, family, and co-workers all have what they consider "helpful" advice and words of...

End of friendship

I’ve always prided myself on being a good friend. That’s what gets me through the darkest moments — believing that I’m at least offering something good to the world, that I’m not leaving things worse than I found them. It’s one of the few qualities...

Something's Going On Around Here

I have been meaning to put a post up for a while now and today just felt like the right day. Usually I would want to write a post over the course of more than one sitting but I felt like there is enough going on around here, a post is warranted. So...